phy p1&2 + miss him

Sigh….at last physics is over…….the main hurdle of this week is over. Well, counting down....5 more papers to go before my fate at the A level’s exams….approximately another 2 ½ months before he will return to Singapore.

Exam matters:

Chem. paper2: Mmmm….amazing I can’t remember much about the paper. Well, quite a few topics in the predictions from tjc came out alright. I got some mental block so got a few equations cannot write. Weird last part of the last qn about the differences between nylon-6,6 and proteins, only gave 1 ½ differences when they asked for 2.

Physics Paper 1 and 2: Well, I think the paper 1 was ok then my classmate Gobind said that the front cover said that each qn is worth 1 mark, half of the usual 2 marks. Weird. Paper 2 totally cheated us. The front 7 qns based on the various topics was more or less ok; it was the last qn, data analysis qn that was totally a killer. Quite a no. of people can’t do some parts of it or just wrote something because they were press for time. I had 1 calculation mistake, the last page, out of the 3 diagrams that we were suppose to draw, I think I only got 1 correct as I didn’t consider the full context of the other 2 parts. What can I do?! I was left with like a few seconds for the last page and scribed a diagram for the last one even a moment after “Pens down”.



Well, that day on Monday, not long after I blogged, he called and we talked for the longest tme on the phone ever, 1 ½ hrs. I don’t even know what we were talking about, a lot of things here and there, totally wishing that we can be side by side in person. Always after a call, I would have 2 possible reactions, smiling to myself about something during the conversation or just daze a while as I still miss him some more. The latter usually happens. Thinking of someone is really a terrible and weird feeling. It seems that we both have approximately the same reaction when thinking about each other. We just sit down, seemingly daze a while as we think on…..until the feeling goes away. Because he’s been to my place before, I sometimes find it hard to stay at home, especially when I am thinking of him and I know I need to go study. Studying out lessens the frequency of the thinking but doesn’t stop it as still there are times when I turn away from my books and daze a while again. Relax….I am studying. It’s just that my other half isn’t with me…sigh…weep weep…….even if we were to be on the phone every hour of the day, it does not make up to having half an hour with him. But for the moment, this would have to do.

Yet again I must emphasize that I am studying and make the most out of it every time….

Sigh…..I am so totally tired after 2 nights of hardly any enough of proper sleep because of the chem. and the physics mugging. I am going to take a nap in the afternoon before mugging to tomorrow’s chemistry’s mcq paper. At last, an afternoon paper. No need to wake up early in the morning can sleep late mugging with no after effects for tomorrow.

Oh yeah, I was trying to take out my ear ring yesterday, on the 1 month anniversary from piercing and it bleed. It bleed when it finally came off. But there is part of me that thinks I poke myself as I never had it bleeding so much. I didn’t try to remove the other ear. Sigh….I am worried that the ears will not be ready for 2 weeks later, prom night’s ear rings…..how? Cook the ear rings in boiling water or make it with fire for a while before wearing it? Will that do? Hope so. But I hope more for the ears to be ready.

maths p2

Freak....maths paper 2 was harder than I expected it to be. Well, there was some parts that I didn't know or really had to crack my brain over it......it was hard in th tricky sense lah.......

Well, there isn't really anything much that I could say. Past few days been mugging exceptionally a lot for physics and it is amazing as to how much one could have forgotten after neglecting a subject for 2 weeks.

Sigh....just been to denise's blog.....actually I go to her blog first whenever I come online. Well, I undersatnd her feeling of not knowing what to do after the As as I asked myself that question after the Os and the sad thing is that I still haven't quiet found the ans. Guess it is alright to have split personalities as long as they don't get into the way of one another like Gollum in LOTR "it's not me!...Liar..I am not listening....murderer....gollum gollum"...hahaha....Well, back to the topic....having invested so much time and effort into science it would be kind of a waste if I don't do it. The hardest thing about making a decision is that there are too many pros and cons behind each and every kind of decision. Well, I found out that if it's actually quite simple, can you see yourself doing the job, is there a possibility that you like it? Forget the trends in the market or what the goverment is encouraging the people to go into, it changes on the average of every 8 years at the most? Well, most importantly, it's your life, if you don't call the shots, then who can? I am a Go-getter in everything that I do and I highly encourage people to become a go-getter. Haha...Medicine?(doubt I can make it locally but it is too expensive overseas) Science(life-sci)? business? Arts and Social sciences? It will be in this order. If can do double degree then good, partner with business.

I would very much like and want to go overseas......I told many people around me that it is the air or something that is innate about the local universities especially nus that I hate. Thought of Peking university for the obvious reason. But if he can stay here for the next 5 years or most of the time while I complete my tertiary education, there is then the possibility that I would opt to study here.